— Danielle Laporte
— Danielle Laporte
whereas I’m mostly thinking “Who am I? Why?”
It’s really tough to see people go through or come to these big life realizations/changes, especially when it involves possibly not pursuing acting as a career, when I just moved down here to do that.
Today has been sort of a whirlwind.
I saw The Drop. It was good. Didn’t realize until the credits that it was based on a Dennis Lehane book.
Taryn and I had a giant talk, which was mostly me having a mild panic attack about life and all this shit.
I was on Facebook and gonna comment on one of my friend’s statuses, but then saw an ad to become a sperm donor, so registered for that instead.
and I was gonna go on a run, but it’s super fucking hot outside. Thought instead that I’d just do push ups while waiting during loading screens, but I hit fifty before the game was done loading…
Anonymous said: Hey, I know things have been tough for you recently, but I wanted to let you know that I have complete faith that you can accomplish your goals and your dreams. You have always been a person that I have admired and I am really rooting for you dude. Keep working hard, and you'll get there. I hope you are well, and if not, know that it's going to turn around soon.
I think I know who this is, but it’s nice to know that there could be several people sending this message.
Things have been tough. I’m floundering a bit and I’m antsy. It also hasn’t been a ton of time. I guess I feel like if I take a breath and gain some complacency, I won’t do anything to further myself. Of course, that means I sit around and stress about things I can’t really control/that haven’t happened yet. But yeah, I’ve been having a really hard time letting myself be happy.
How do you know whether your bullshit is worse to deal with or more important than someone else’s bullshit, you know? Does what I’m worrying about warrant any merit?
Thanks for the kind words. I’ve been trying to see people as much as possible down here, but people are more flaky, unfortunately. Combine that with me having too much free time, and I start to feel pretty isolated, and my brain starts running wild.
Man, this could turn into a much longer post. Suffice to say, I know things will turn around. And I’m looking forward to that, and trying to do what I can to make that happen. Just wish I had more people to do it with along the way.
to not hang out with me/text me back this weekend, maybe don’t post photos of yourself out to dinner with other people on Instagram, hm?